Today my mother picked me up for my doctor’s appointment; I was going because the cancer is beginning to bother me.
In short, the pain I am having… which btw is an 8/10 (and the first time I’ve complained period)(although I do have some memory loss, or as my mother says, “she’s a classic case”) could either be because the cancer is getting worse… and a small chance it could be from overdoing things. By the end of next week, after I have had another MRI, CT Scan and PET Scan- I will know if I am just resistant to everything- meaning I could try radiation and chemo but….. or it’s nothing. So if you can imagine a scale of justice….. shit on one side, nothing on the other.
Thus far, there have been 3 times in this unplanned journey where I have felt that my life was in imminent danger- this being one of them.
Now, the best part of all of this- is my mother asked me if I wanted to be her building’s lifeguard.